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Too Tender for Tinder

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I woke this morning with my eyes misting with tears. I am enduring, perhaps even wallowing, in the pain of my breakup, because I have never truly allowed myself to feel the pain and complexities of my emotions. I have found it useful to shove away the tears, smile through a broken heart, crack a joke when a careless word pierces my heart.

Loneliness in the Dark

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It is in the dark of night that I miss you the most. It is getting better, but it still hurts. I'm trying to stay busy. I go out with my friends, I work a lot, and I try to think about what my goals are.

Mending a Broken Heart

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It has been a week since I saw him last. I have packed a lot of living into this week. I have tried to stay busy, but I suppose I have just been avoiding solitude.

My Heart is Breaking

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I thought I would have more time. I thought I would have about three weeks before I would hear from him. Yet, he texted me last night. I love him. Of that, there is no doubt. He has been a major part of my life for nearly 6 years now. I know that there have been issues, yet, we always muddle through it, much like toddlers in a sandbox.

A New Day is Dawning

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I awake on the first day of my new life. I don't have work today, since in my old life, I would be driving back from Key Largo to Fort Myers. Over the weekend, I was able to get moved in to my new place. Last night, I cooked my first meal here. I awake this morning with a full day in front of me, and no agenda.

I Choose Me

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It was Fall of 2011 and my second marriage was imploding. He was so angry and unhappy, and we rarely had sex. When I pushed him about it, he told me to get a boyfriend. Here's a hint, ladies, when a man says that, he really doesn't mean it.

You Know That Drunk Tourist in Key West That You Hate?

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Well, that was me this past Saturday night. I have no idea what I was thinking (other than PARTY). I got completely obliterated, downing essentially two bottles of wine with very limited food on my tummy.