Yesterday, I handed my car over to my dad.
I loved my car. It was a Toyota convertible, and I personally put a good 100,000 miles on it over the past few years. It was reliable and looked great. Now, for the first time in more years than I can fathom, I am car-less.
Ironically, I am not the least bit upset by this. Dad needed a car, and I will not need mine for 2 years. Without regular maintenance, it would simply rot away while I was gone. At least this way, I know it is being used, and helping Dad, too.
This is also one more step toward my departure for the Peace Corps. I have liquidated pretty much anything I had, and my car was the last step. When I return to Charleston next week, my friend is letting me borrow his extra car until I leave, so at least I can get around and possibly work a bit before leaving.
In all, things are moving along nicely. I have been joking with friends and family that I am homeless, unemployed and car-less, and yet I have never felt wealthier. Having shed the material possessions, I am free to move about as I please. When you have very little, what you choose to keep really does represent that which means the most to you. I will not be sitting in Africa wondering about some silly little trinket I left in America. I will be at peace with what I have. My emotions and thoughts are reserved for the people that mean something to me, not possessions.
I have thought about what life will look like upon my return in 2021. Will I accept another tour? Will I work in another country? Will I return to the States and find a home? I cannot even imagine what it will look like, yet.
I will say that, since I have been traveling and wandering around, I do not miss "home." I am not eager to get back. I feel perfectly at peace with where I am at any given moment. I am eager to see my loved ones. I have realized that it is my relationships that matter to me, and my goals are about returning to them, not a place.
I have finally found a home, and it is within my own skin.
- To help the people of interested countries in meeting their need for trained men and women.
- To help promote a better understanding of Americans on the part of the peoples served.
- To help promote a better understanding of other peoples on the part of Americans.